I'm Not Done Yet!

I know, it's been since forever since I've last written. It feels like it's been for forever since I last ran too. Andrew went to New Orleans over a weekend a few weeks back, I ran once that entire time and I couldn't even finish my run. Things have been pretty busy with my sister's wedding and all. I've been sick twice which has kept me holed up inside and it's also been difficult to fit in a run with my parents and their insistent need to cook for me. Hopefully November will give me better opportunities to run. Although, the off-beat weather we've been having is making me weary.

The fact is, I like running. Actually, I love running. I hate it when I'm doing it. I absolutely despise it, it hurts, sometimes my lungs feel on fire, sometimes it feels like my legs are made out of lead. After it's over however and I'm done, this euphoria comes over me. I'm relaxed, I'm impressed, and I'm pretty much back to my normal breathing self in under 2 minutes. I feel so accomplished after a good run, I feel accomplished even after a terrible run. I didn't just go to work and come home watch TV, I ran. Our bodies are made for running, they're made for movement. I can't wait to get back into it. I just can't wait. Plus running's helped me lose about 6lbs! Which is pretty nice, hopefully I can lose another 6lbs when I start back up.

Starting back up is going to be difficult. I'll have to build up again and with my running partner who is more hardcore than I will ever be, I don't know how well that'll work. I might have to ditch the Drew in order to get back to my game. Let him prove to himself that he's a macho man, I'm going to take it at my own pace and work myself back up.

I'm looking forward to it though. So forward to it that from now till when I build back up, I can't spend any money...so the money I do get will go towards a really sweet cold weather running outfit and a new pair of sneaks! Woot!

Even talking about running is getting me excited. I think as an added incentive to continue my runnings, I'm going to photograph myself everyday after my runs and when I finally get to a point where I feel comfortable, I'll make an animated gif to show off the transformation!

There's still a lot I have to do to get my body where I want it to be and a lot of it is difficult for such an absent minded individual like myself. It's not all due to the fact that I'm lazy, but I know I should write down the food I eat. Just to show myself what exactly I'm stuffing my face with AND to figure out what works for me energy wise when I run. (Running when you've got nothing in your tank...is terrible!) I should try to start doing all of these workouts I print out and think about. I should stretch longer, I should sleep longer. There's a lot I need to do. And I need to get to it!

Deferred Success.

The runs lately haven't been as successful. I'm having a hardtime just blocking out the world lately. It doesn't help when I run, because it all hits me and I feel it weighing on me. Weird, running helped me clear my mind, now my unclear mind isn't helping me run! I hope I can bounce back. I'm not running tonight because I have to help Maria with wedding stuff. But I hope that I will get to do so on Saturday. We've been pretty good about supplementing our walks with runs. And I even ran for like 15 minutes when Andrew was gone to New Orleans. Which was pretty good considering I had already walked four miles that day.

I've decided that after my parents leave, I'm going to pick up a new workout routine. By February I hope to have my body completely sculpted and be able to run a 5K as if it were nothing. I'm going to buy a new pair of tights and top and eventually new sneakers.

Monday Night Running

Routine: Run 16Min Walk 1 min Run 14Min
Route: The south end of HP.

Probably the best run of my life. Seriously. You suckers thought I quit, but here I am. Trekking along. This is what? Week 6 or 7. I'm not entirely sure and I gave up on counting days because of my inability to blog. However, nothing hurts anymore. My shins don't cry out in pain, my ankles don't feel as if they are going to snap and the ligaments in my knees aren't going to come apart and have my thigh separate from my leg. (Or vise versa actually) It's just my music, my breath, my step and my pace. Granted I get a slight pain in my shoulder and since I do have a cough my lungs were a bit burning...but it wasn't intolerable. It was quite the opposite. I felt as if I could run for hours.

What I like about running is, I can just focus on myself for half an hour. I like that I'm being physical for that one half hour. That I'm doing something we all can do, I just choose to take a half hour to do it. I use will power to get up and go. It clears my head, it takes away a lot of my anger. I come home feeling relaxed and sometimes a bit euphoric. Some days I feel as if all I want to do is run and write. And really write, not blog in a messed up state of consciousness format (or babbling as I call it) that I use here. But really write. I feel that with running, I'm slowly becoming who it is that I want to be. As if dams and walls that were keeping the two people that existed inside of me are being torn asunder with each run, with each minute I can accomplish. That might just be because it's one of the first things I've done solely for me.

This didn't really focus on my routine. But there's not much I can say now that I'm hooked. Other than I didn't die today and I haven't tripped yet.

I do need to get new tights though....

Last couple of runs....

Maybe I should make a blog where I blog about how I keep up with my running blog. For motivation Ha ha ha ha! I'm actually getting sick, so running has been harder lately than ever. I also spent the past weekend in Baltimore and if Ruthy ever wants to give me those pictures, it'd be nice so I can put them up. I also have about a million things to do with my sister's wedding drawing even closer and my grandiose ideas of being the craftiest person I know. (Like I'm the next Martha Stewart...which I'm not cause I lack patience and think it should take me like 20 minutes to do anything...but I'm working on that).

I did the 14 minutes, and I even gave up at one point and picked myself back up. Finished with an awesome sprint. Once again thanks to my Mp3 player, a habit I'd like to break. Yesterday with sickness and lethargy, I busted through a Run/Walk of 15min Run 1 min walk, 14min Run. I hit the wall in my two minute sprint but recovered in less than three minutes. Which isn't so bad.

I feel so lazy when I don't run but since life keeps interrupting with my running, it's been taking a slight back burner. Like tonight for example. We're going to see Cake...so no running...so I'll have to pick it up Thursday, Friday and Saturday so that I can return to a normal schedule the following week.

As for my weight...I'm remaining solid at a nice 123.5 but I still feel like that's too much for me. I'd like to get to a 110 or a 115. But it takes time, I'm not going to magically drop 10 lbs in a week or two. I should do some work now!